I have no idea why. Or how. Something I fell in love with... turned me off a while back... and then like some sort of weird miracle... caught my eye cross the room by surprise and took hold of me. As if no time had passed at all... only I discovered that all those days without that love... I was learning how to love it better than I knew how to before. How do we learn how to do something while not doing it at all? The human experience is so amazing. We are so much more than we realize.
I think it's such a gift that my old brain is where it used to be... without me giving it due diligence. Like a shiny ring I forgot I owned. It was always there... just waiting.
There is an intense comfort that comes from remembering something you used to love.